The Making of a Molehill

For a good part of my life, I have pursued the more massive of media, film and then the most massive, television. I’ve produced, mainly on the development side of the business, but have also written screenplays. I spent four years at a small television production company in Studio City, California trying to get our own movies-of-the-week (MOWs) into production. Everyday, our agent, ICM, would fax over the numbers, the estimated share of viewers for a given night. We would hover around them to see how the previous night's shows did, but these numbers were most important whenever one of our movies aired. We wanted, rather needed, the largest number of people we could get to tune in and then, over the course of the story watching a Tori Spelling or a Cybill Shepherd go undercover to save a one-time straight-A-daughter from a life of prostitution, stay tuned. We needed millions and millions of viewers or we were nothing.

That was the world of broadcast media.

Prior to that I spent many years dedicated to getting as many butts into the 20 to 40 seats of the black box theaters where I produced my own plays. In retrospect, this was some of the most rewarding creative work I’ve done. A small room full of thirty attentive people is electric, the pinnacle of live performance. Still, at the time, my sights were set on getting my work into bigger houses, such as Seattle’s ACT, Intiman and LA’s Mark Taper, and in the many theaters of New York. I also had apprehensions that despite how thriving and creative, such work would never bring me a meeting in Hollywood, wouldn't get me that two-picture deal, nor would it - dare I utter the words - get me that beach house on the Oregon Coast.

The family into which I was born was made up of self-made men, Horatio Alger’s that I trusted, respected and loved. From my grandfather, who was a world renowned heart specialist in his day, to uncles who created great businesses without much formal education. Suffice it to say that, as someone who has pursued the arts, it has taken considerable effort to get beyond the notion that success of a piece is determined by something other than the monetary value designated to it by its distributor. Even when I know it in my heart of hearts. Over a pint of beer, I can easily disparage Ikea founder Ingvar Kamprad’s statement that (and I paraphrase) any idea that does not have cash value has no real value at all.

Still, there is a cavern of my mind that continues to echo Mr. Kamprad's words, loudly, with authority, as though the voice of God, a place where I submit myself prostrate in shame.

There is a healing for this shame, however. Hope on the horizon. It's quite possible I might find influence in the future of media and relinquish the appetence to find my way to the large audience. It is here right now, with this blog entry. It is with my book. It is with most of the fruit of my creative labors. By way of Fish or Cut Bait, and then through High Low & In Between, I was led to a survey on modern media written by Andreas Kluth of The Economist. His premise is that there is evidence in everything from blogs to independent music that the small, specific audience is becoming a force to be reckoned with. The trend is called Participatory Media; it puts the paintbrush into everyone’s hand, telling them to have fun. No worries about getting into that gallery, getting airplay, finding that production budget. Just create and share and smell the roses along the way. A long awaited freedom from the approving nod of distribution moguls and critics.

You should read it. Survey: New Media. Please, take the time necessary. Don’t try to read it in one sitting. It is one of the most comprehensive surveys I've seen on the current state of media, discussing not only the influence of interactivity over media, but also the look and feel of future media. And the fun part? The enigma it presents to the media giants of the last century.

Identifying the Anonymous

At the bottom of this page, you will find a counter that indicates how many individuals have visited this blog. As the author of AoaN, I have access to other information that this tracking device provides, such as where the visitors are coming from, what they did to get here, what they looked at, and where they went when they left. For example, this morning I found that someone in Petaling Jaya in the region of Wilayah Persekutuan in Malaysia stopped by after having read the Weblog review (posted on May 11th), they stayed for 2 minutes and 16 seconds, visited two pages, and left by clicking on "Read 2 Chapters." Another example: an Iowan did a search on MSN for "how i became a narcissist," found AoaN on the second page of results and clicked through. Some might find this lack of anonymity alarming; I find the information curious and check the counter almost everyday.

Having recently fallen headfirst into the world of eCommerce, I have been exposed to a lot of studies on the behavior of the individual on the Internet. Noteworthy is how unique the experience is when observed through the behavior, as opposed to the other way around. For instance, the average time spent on any given web page is 20 seconds; then, they move on or go back. This is important to know when moving commerce across the web, but it is also interesting when one has a blog that is out there in the eTher. I find that most visitors to AoaN show a stay duration of 0 (zero) seconds, which I have come to assume to mean they stay less than 30 seconds. These long paragraphs I write, though proper and expected in print media, are likely scaring most surfers away. As a reader, I, too, find I grow impatient with long posts. As a writer, old habits die hard.

Of course, there is a plethera of studied behaviors surrounding the anonymity of the web experience. Though sometimes called a "community," the Internet facilitates very individualistic, non-committal and less than amiable attitudes. It also lays the foundation for role-playing, one of its most burgeoning pursuits.

Someone Not Me

Sometimes, I play the role of someone who is not me and search the web for ways to arrive at AoaN. This morning, I did a Google search for "Narcissist" and found my blog to be the 79th search result. Add the name "Foster" and it brings in my book as the number one result, as well as 2nd through 5th. So I suppose I've pigeonholed myself, if only by name.

The seventh search result was the start of another rabbit hole for me. It clicked through to a psychological paper by Joshua Foster and W. Keith Campbell of the Psychology Department at University of Georgia, and Jean M. Twenge of San Diego State University. It is entitled "Individual differences in narcissism: Inflated self-views across the lifespan and around the world." I was sucked in. Granted, I know nothing of what constitutes quality in the world of psychology papers, but I was intrigued. I recommend it; it is only 18 pages in length, 2 of which are footnotes and if you are short on time, skip ahead to the "Discussion" on page 12 where the findings of their study are explored.

Basically, their predictions in four areas are validated by their research (note that by "report" they mean "display"):

1. We found that younger people report more narcissism than older people.
2. The differences in reported narcissism levels among the contrasted ethnic identities are similar to those in self-esteem.
3. We found that world regions that generally display greater individualism also tend to display more narcissism.
4. We were able to report further evidence that men report more narcissism than women.

Do the reading for more details, and it's good reading, but know that they found that the Chinese are more narcissistic than Americans, but the Japanese are less narcissistic than Americans, and that Blacks score the highest and Asians either the lowest or near the lowest (for narcissism) and that the more failure people experience, the less narcissistic they are likely to be. Among other things.

Constructed A Website

All of this - and particularly the racial distinctions - begs the question as to who their subject pool was. They constructed an Internet website through which they were able to survey 3445 participants across their needed ethnic, national, age and gender lines. They do a good job, in my opinion, of controlling for their various tests. They reflect upon their findings, how their subjects may have been a factor, and they consider the shortcomings of their subject pool. However, one comment stood out for me:

"In general, one might question whether Internet respondents answer questionnaires honestly. However, this concern is present in the traditional survey method as well, and there is no reason to believe that people are more dishonest when completing an Internet questionnaire."

In fact, there is reason to believe that people are more dishonest when completing an Internet questionnaire. This isn't to say that one should believe that they are less honest, only that reason is there. I have read many studies that support this. Granted, of late, these have been marketing studies, but who better to subsidize such investigations than the businesses that want to make sure they're getting the most bang for their buck? However, I do remember a web-expert interviewed in Wired magazine (back in the days when we still called this "The Information Highway," circa 1995) who stated that the entire experience of the Internet will be defined and determined by "accountability." And I think she was accurate.

Signs Of Narcissism

Internet studies show that perceived anonymity promotes aggressive behavior, feelings of empowerment and entitlement, overall individualistic motives, and diminishes the impulse to accountability. Interesting is that these behaviors are classic signs of narcissism. Here's the part I like: the irony. Foster, Campbell, and Twenge, in surveying Internet users in a study about narcissism, employed the medium of the web, a medium that clearly promotes narcissistic tendencies in its users. I'm impressed with their study, but isn't it more than possible that this irony could alter their findings? Couldn't those who "report more narcissism" be reporting even more narcissism when they find themselves behind the wheel of their browsers?

Hmmmm. Is this post aggressive? Individualistic? Am I perceiving it as empowering? Well, I will be held accountable. That's a relief.

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